Archive for October, 2010

scattered.

Posted in emo on October 8, 2010 by darryl zero

The familiar, inescapable, confusing lethargy is back, only slightly different–I’m inspired, to be sure, moreso than I’ve been in a little while, but the energy isn’t there, my body replacing the usual enthusiasm that comes with being creative with an exhausted malaise, this all-encompassing emotional drain that’s different from the emptiness I usually feel. Some of it is concern (as is natural when one changes careers–although I think everyone would agree that my previous dead-end position was the kind of career that drives even the most vital of men to the worst, Thurber-esque flights of fantasy), some of it is just confusion.

Some of it is fear, although I can’t put my finger on exactly what it is I fear other than…the usual. God, I sound like such a fucking broken record, don’t I? It’d be nice to have something new to be introspective about.

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